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I really need to stop taking so long to update. My mom and I are looking for another house to move into. We're hoping to find something that's rent to own for under $1000 dollars each month, because unfortunately the rent on the house that we're currently in is being raised to something that we won't be able to keep up with at the moment. I think that we're under new management or something like that, I can't remember.

For my 18th birthday next year, my mom and I have started making plans for a trip to Ireland. We've never been out of the country and have always wanted to see Ireland, because of our Irish ancestors. I'm so excited! I hope that everything works out. Since we're planning everything so early, I have high hopes for this trip.

There isn't much that's new with my life right now, other than getting addicted to new TV shows, discovering new movies, and taking the ACT (blegh). Something that I've found randomly fascinating is that my teachers love my writing and I always get high marks in the English area and everything, but I hate when I get writing assignments. I like writing okay, but I don't love it, even though I'm apparently not too bad at it. It seems weird to me. I think that maybe it's because I get overly frustrated when I write, because I want every last thing to be perfect and when I can't find the write word or when I get hopelessly stuck, (which happens a lot) it makes me stressed. I've always wanted to try and write fan fic, because I adore other people's fan fics, but I keep getting stuck and fed up, and end up quitting. I fail.
Everything is falling apart. Because of my broken arm, I can hardly do ANYTHING. Everything was just starting to come together and I was really happy, and now for the next 6 weeks, that's all destroyed....I'm so frustrated right now....All I want to do is curl up in bed and sleep forever. The orthopedist that I visited today said that I'm not even allowed to jog. I can't do anything that has impact, I can only dope up on vicodin and keep my arm above my heart while trying my best not to turn into a couch potato. =( Sucky day....I'm fairly irritable right now, because the orthopedist had to re-allign my bones and I'm in a lot of pain. Bleh, maybe tomorrow will be better.

Oct. 7th, 2009

I broke my arm in gymnastics last night....My dominant arm. DAH! It's so frustrating....Gymnastics is one of my favorite things in whole world and I'm going to be out of it for a while. I can't even play Ultimate Frisbee. =(
I love gymnastics! My muscles are all sore, but that's okay, I'm going to keep doing my gymnastics classes. Driving was amazing. It actually turned out to be a bit easier than I thought it would be and I can't wait to drive again.

Aug. 23rd, 2009

One thing that I forgot to mention in my previous post; I have a gymnastics trial class this Tuesday. I've wanted to do gymnastics for years, and I know that I'm starting way too late, but I really don't care....That much....DEMONS!!!! I've been thinking way too much about life lately....There are times that I wish that I could just shut my brain off for a while. Life is too chaotic sometimes.

Aug. 23rd, 2009

I finally got my belly-button pierced with my best friend in the whole wide world! And my learners permit! NSJNDJ!!!!!!!! School started again, which I'm worried about, but I joined the school sport, which is Ultimate Frisbee. I feel more like I belong to something, although it also adds some more terror to my life. My belly button hasn't gotten infected yet, which I'm psyched about! It's been about 2 weeks since I got it pierced. There was this one really frightening moment, where I thought that I had ruined it all though. During Ultimate Frisbee, I was as graceful as ever and tripped over my own feet while running, and landed on my stomach. Yep, graceful. I'm still kicking myself for that, (among other things *whistles*) but my mom and I swung by White Lotus (the piercing place, which is AWESOME. They're all extremely nice and professional.) and they checked the piercing out to make sure that I didn't tear it and completely mess it up or anything. Fortunately, it's fine and didn't tear. Bwah ha ha!!!! I've been keeping up a constant exercise regime, and I don't feel as crappy anymore, but I still feel wiped out sometimes. It's probably because school just started, but I dunno. I love sleep.
There are so many days now, where I just feel numb for absolutely no reason. I wouldn't mind it so much if I actually knew why I was feeling numb. It's a strange feeling. My mind feels kind of sluggish and cloudy, and it doesn't really feel like processing much. The worst part, is even though I should have emotions and opinions on whatever is happening, I can't sort any emotions out. This has been happening way too often and I'm getting sick of it. I can't think much right now. I have no idea what to do with myself and what needs to be done, or what I want to do. Yesterday was better, I was able to freak out about how close the time is coming to when I'm going to move out and go to college.
I have bangs now....It's weird, because I haven't had bangs since I was 6, but I really like having them now. I look kind of different with bangs, so it's pretty cool. I didn't sleep well at all last night, I kept waking up every 2-4 hours and finally just got up at around 5:30am. There's not much that I have to say yet, because it's only 9:20am, but I'm incredibly bored and I'm not sure what to do. My mom is at clinicals until 6:30-7:00pm, so it's just me and my cat.
I'm in an extremely good mood right now. I just got back from the gym with my mom, so that's the main reason why. I'm completely out of shape right now and today was the first time I've started exercising again in a while. There was one other time a couple of weeks ago, but that was just some random, out of nowhere exercise. I'm about to go and get a haircut as well, which always makes me feel good, so this is a surprisingly wonderful day for me....I just hope that it doesn't suddenly get ruined or something, I can't stand when that happens.

Baby kitty!!!! *runs around screaming about magic and bananas*

....I need to lay off the caffeine....Although I most likely won't. Ever.